Birthday Verse for Monica

by Monica Cole
(Lodi, CA. USA)

MONICA COLE
BIRTH MONTH: NOVEMBER
BIRTH DAY: 06

REBORN MONTH: SEPTEMBER
REBORN DAY: 09

GOD HAS BLESSED MY LIFE WITH MANY JOYS AS WELL AS HEARTBREAKS THROUGHOUT MY LIFE. THOUGH MY LIFE IS NOT ALL I FEEL IT WILL BE, I KNOW IT IS NOT OVER YET. GOD HAS GIVEN ME THE GIFT OF FAITH COUPLED WITH A GOD GIVEN INTUITION THAT WILL STAND THE TEST OF THIS WORLD THAT IS RAMPANT WITH THE PERVERSE DOINGS OF SATAN AND HIS LEGIONS! FIVE YEARS AGO ON 09/09 I WAS IN AN ACCIDENT IN THE MAIN CHANNEL OF THE DELTA WHILE JET-SKIING THAT LEFT ME IN THE WATER WITH THREE SHATTERED VERTEBRE L-3, L-4 AND L-5 AND TORN MUSCLES IN MY ABDOMEN AND PELVIS AREA. THE THING IS GOD TOLD ME THIS WOULD HAPPEN THE NIGHT BEFORE, BUT THEN TOOK THE MEMORY OF HIM TELLING ME, AWAY UNTIL THE SECOND THAT MY BONES SHATTERED! WHY! BECAUSE THE NIGHT BEFORE WITH A CLEAR HEART AND MIND I ASKED GOD A QUESTION AND HE ANSWERED! THAT QUESTION WAS, "HOW DO I KNOW? THE WHOLE WORLD SAYS YOU AREN'T REAL OR TRUE! HOW DO I KNOW YOU TRULY EXIST WHEN THE WORLD SAYS YOU DON'T?" AND GOD ANSWERED, "BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD!" MIND YOU THIS ALL HAPPENED IN LESS THAN 30 SECONDS, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE RIGHT WHEN I ASKED THAT QUESTION, MY MIND WAS QUIET AND FREE OF ALL THE CONSTANT RAMPANT THOUGHTS ZINGING THROUGH IT! EXCEPT FOR THE ONE CLEAR THOUGHT OF "BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD" AND INSTANTLY I HAD AN IMAGE OF A CONVERSATION I HAD WITH MY MOM AT A BIBLE STUDY FUNCTION. THAT CONVERSATION CONSISTED OF HER TELLING ABOUT A WOMAN WHO WAS PARALYZED FROM THE NECK DOWN SINCE SHE WAS 16 YEARS OLD WHEN SHE DOVE INTO HER BEST FRIENDS POOL AND BROKE HER NECK AND THIS WAS AT THE TIME THAT SHE HAD REDEDICATED HER LIFE TO GOD ASKING HIM TO PLEASE USE HER FOR HIS GREATER PURPOSE, AND GOD HAS. SHE IS A SUCCESSFUL PAINTER WHO USES HER MOUTH TO PAINT PICTURES INSPIRED BY GOD AND SHE IS AN INSPIRATION FROM GOD TO THIS DAY! THIS MEMORY CAUSED ME TO PRAYERFULLY SOB AND CRY OUT TO THE LORD, PLEASE LORD DON'T PARALYZE ME AND HOLD ME IN THE PALM OF YOUR HAND! HOW STRANGE TO PRAY THIS PRAYER. I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT IF I HAD REMEMBERED SAYING IT! BUT JUST THEN MY DOORBELL RANG AND MY DOG BEGAN BARKING! AND AS FAST AS ALL THAT HAD HAPPENED IT WAS TAKEN FROM ME - THE MEMORY OF EVER EVEN CRYING OUT TO THE LORD, BY THE TIME I GOT TO MY FRONT DOOR THE TEARS I HAD SHED WERE DRY AND GONE AS IF THEY HAD NEVER HAPPENED! AND AT THAT MOMENT I DID NOT REMEMBER THEM BEING SHED OR THE PRAYERFUL WORDS I HAD PLED TO THE LORD ABOUT NOT PARALYZING ME! IF I HAD REMEMBERED YOU CAN BET I WOULD HAVE NEVER GONE OUT ON THE WATER JET-SKIING THAT NEXT DAY! AT 1 P.M. ON 09/09 WE HEADED OUT TO THE DELTA FOR AN AFTERNOON OF FUN! EVERYTHING WAS UNEVENTFUL WHEN WE ARRIVED AT THE ISLAND AND DOCK NOT FAR FROM WHERE WE LAUNCHED AT PARADISE POINT! MY FRIEND AND I DOCKED AND TIED BOTH JET-SKIS UP AND UNLOADED OUR ICE-CHEST AND TOWELS AND SAT IN THE SUN VISITING WHEN A HUGE BOAT CAME BY MAKING SOME NICE SIZED WAKES! I JUMPED UP AND IN RUNNING, HOLLERED OVER MY SHOULDER - WANT TO SEE ME IN MOTION? I REACHED DOWN, GRABBED MY LIFE VEST, FLUNG IT ON AND HIT MY JET-SKI RUNNING. I DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO BUCKLE MY LIFE VEST! MY FRIEND KEPT YELLING AT ME "MONICA, STOP! BUCKLE YOUR VEST! AND EVERYTIME SHE YELLED I HAD THE THOUGHT "YOU KNOW YOU SHOULD BUT YOUR NOT GOING TO!" THREE TIMES I HAD THAT SAME THOUGHT, WHICH WAS HOW MANY TIMES I HEARD HER YELL "STOP! BUCKLE YOUR LIFE VEST!" I HAVE NEVER JET-SKIED WITHOUT BUCKLING MY VEST NOR HAVE I EVER CHASED A WAKE. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE ANOTHER WAKE! BUT THIS DAY I WAS DETERMINED TO HAVE THAT WAKE AT ALL COST! AS I HIT THE WAKE IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I DIDN'T FEEL ONE WITH MY JET-SKI. EVERYTHING FELT WRONG AND EVERY FIBER IN MY BEING WANTED AWAY FROM THAT JET-SKI WHICH CAUSED ME TO PUSH AWAY FROM IT AND HIT THE WATER AT A HIGH VELOCITY. AT THE SECOND I HIT THE WATER MY BONES WERE SHATTERING AND LIGAMENTS AND MUSCLES WERE TEARING AT THAT SAME EXACT MOMENT. GOD GAVE ME BACK MY MEMORY OF THE NIGHT BEFORE WHEN HE SAID "BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD!" THIS ANSWERED MY QUESTION "HOW DO I KNOW, YOU TRULY EXIST LORD?" IN GIVING ME A PRAYERFUL MOMENT WITH HIM AND THEN TAKING AWAY THE MEMORY, ONLY TO RETURN IT TO ME AT THE EXACT MOMENT I BROKE MY BACK, HE ANSWERED MY QUESTION, "HOW DO I KNOW, YOU TRULY ARE LORD?" ONLY THE LORD COULD HAVE THE POWER TO DO THAT! TO SAY THE LEAST HE DID HOLD ME IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND THAT DAY AND FOR THE NEXT CRITICAL FIVE HOURS WHICH WAS HOW LONG IT TOOK FOR ME TO BE RETRIEVED AND LIFE FLIGHTED TO U.C.DAVIS WHERE I HAD A TRAUMA TEAM AND A NEURO TEAM WORKING ON ME! FIVE DAYS LATER I UNDERWENT 11 HOURS OF NEUROSURGERY AND MY SURGEON SAID IT IS A MIRACLE I WASN'T PARALYZED BY THE RAZOR SHARP PIECES OF BONE THAT WERE POKING INTO MY SPINAL CORD! AFTER TEN DAYS I WAS RELEASED IN A FULL BODY CAST THAT I REMAINED IN FOR FOUR MONTHS AND 10 DAYS! UPON MY BODY CAST A FRIEND WROTE:

"I AM TOO
BLESSED
TO BE STRESSED
AND TOO ANOINTED
TO BE DISSAPOINTED"

AND I KNEW AND KNOW TO THIS DAY THAT IN FACT IS TRUE! I KNOW GOD IS THE WAY, THE LIGHT AND THE TRUTH! WHEN I ASKED WITH AN HONEST HEART-FELT QUESTION HE ANSWERED ME! "BE STILL AND KNOW I AM LORD" LITERALLY I WAS STILL IN BODY AND MIND FOR QUITE SOMETIME. WHAT A WAY THE LORD WORKS! MY TRAGEDY WAS GOD INSPIRED BEFORE IT HAPPENED! HE IS TRUE TO HIS WORD AND HE HEALED ME OF MORE THAN BROKEN BONES BUT ALSO OF A BROKEN SPIRIT THAT DAY FIVE YEARS AGO! AND THOUGH IT DIDN'T HAPPEN OVER NIGHT, I DID IN FACT HEAL WITH LITTLE RESIDUAL PROBLEMS! AND HE HEALED ME OF MY ADDICTION TO NICOTINE THAT DAY OF MY ACCIDENT I WAS A HEAVY SMOKER AND HAD BEEN FOR 13 YEARS, I HAVE NEVER SMOKED ANOTHER CIGARETTE SINCE 09/09 WITH NO WITHDRAWLS! I RETURNED TO SCHOOL THE DAY MY BODY CAST WAS REMOVED AND GRADUATED THIS PAST MAY 21 WITH A NATURAL SCIENCE DEGREE AND MAJORED IN ELECTRON MICROSCOPY MATERIALS SCIENCE! I AM ACTIVELY APPLYING FOR FULL TIME EMPLOYMENT AND AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE EXCITING FUTURE THE LORD WILL LEAD ME TO! I STILL HAVE DAYS THAT ARE FULL OF FEARS AND WORRIES BUT THEY DON'T LAST LONG! HOW CAN THEY WHEN EVERYWHERE I LOOK I SEE THE FACE OF MY LORD AND CREATOR! WHO LOVES ME ENOUGH TO TELL ME THE FUTURE, REMOVE IT, AND RETURN THE MEMORY SO THAT I WOULD KNOW HE HEARS AND ANSWERS ME WITH A PERFECT PLAN OF PURPOSE FOR MY LIFE! ONE THAT HONORS AND GIVES GLORY TO GOD ALMIGHTY. WHO GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON SO THAT ALL COULD BE SAVED! AND MY BELIEF IN THAT MAKES ME HOLY AND GIVES ME EVERLASTING LIFE IN HEAVEN WITH MY SAVIOR!
AMEN! GOD SPEED AND KNOW YOUR PURPOSE IN GOD!

SINCERELY,
BROKEN AND MADE WHOLE IN THE LORD!
MONICA COLE
REGISTERED VETERINARY TECHNICIAN AND
ELECTRON MICROSCOPIST OF CRYSTALLINE MATERIALS